Had a really productive meeting today, with someone who I think is really going to impact my life, moving forward. I don’t want to get too excited, because everything is still very early and there is a long way to go still. But things are trending upwards in several different, but parallel vectors. There just isn’t enough time in the day to focus on them all, but this is one of the bigger components that I think will have a trickle down effect on almost every other tangent. I’m excited, as you might tell.
Really looking forward to getting away this weekend. Celebrating on the eve of fifteen years is almost a little surreal. I’ve spent so much effort avoiding focus on the many mistakes I have made in that time. I’ve been working through this a little bit recently and looking back again. It’s still as hard as I thought it might be, but it’s also reminding me of the many more good memories I should be cherishing more. This is the type of person that I want to be, and I think there is an extra helping of shame when I worry about the possibility that I ruined my chances at redemption. This is largely the struggle that I have. There are other parts, as well. It’s much more complex, overall. But this is a pretty big piece of it. Memories shouldn’t hurt.
The next month or so is going to be very telling. And I have some critical work to do, in order to keep up the pace I want, to see the results I’m looking for. I’ll report back on this later. For the time being, in respect to this site, I am going to shift my priority towards one of the backlog projects I have been prepping for. I am going to try and recreate my MySpace here. I have like 55 blogs to repost. Some, I may have thoughts on, and will want to also add some newer thoughts to give better context. This will take some time and commitment, so I’ll work on also trying to templatize more of the workflow so it doesn’t become so time consuming.